The big question

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Now on to the topic... "The big question" 

I promise you this is not just some click bait like oooo is it gonna be about relationships, God, what is Noelle's idea of a "big question"...

Well this week I have toured two colleges, complete opposites of each other. So my big question is how the heck am I supposed to decide?!? Seriously, it doesn't help that I'm getting to senior year... I love the church but when it gets time they are too concerned! Like what do you want to do? Where do you want to go? I just want to have a piece of paper taped to me saying do not under any circumstances ask me any questions pertaining to anything in the future.... Once I know maybe I can then tell you... But until further notice do not even mention the word College, like ever.

So, to wrap up I just want to say, don't let anyone pressure you into deciding. If you want to stand at the back of the line at McDonald's trying to decide between a chocolate or vanilla shake for ten minutes (because only a certain person likes strawberry on a certain day) you go for it because I will be right there with ya!

It was always you

Bloodied and wounded

You lay on the cross for me

My sin, the nails at your feet

I was a soldier

I was a Pharisee 

But that didn't matter to you

Because you called me free

Because you called me redeemed

I put you there, upon that cross

I was the sheep that was lost

I called out among the crowd

For your blood upon the ground

But that didn't matter to you

Because you did it for me

You sacrificed so my life could be

Finally I have been set free

No longer the sin to weigh me down

No crown of thorns on my brow

In Jesus I am found

In Jesus I'm made new

Because the cost was you

High School- A Popularity Contest

Sure, she didn't get that high profiling position that will make her stand out on college applications. It's not like she wasn't qualified, in fact she was probably over-qualified. Instead, a popular jock received it. Yup, that one word in front of jock can change the whole situation. In high school, this scenario isn't unique, in fact most people would call it common. It's sad that our society has come down who has the most friends instead of who has the most experience. Why bother? Why put yourself out there enough to try to make a difference when in reality you have a 1 in 1,000 chance you can actually get it. What can you do? Change your hair? Change your clothes? Put on a fake smile and try to "fit in"? Sure, you may have got that position but is it truly going to make you happy? Being "liked" by everyone in the school, but not having any real friendships? If the population is too stupid to realize how much potential you have than its their loss. If they don't realize that you can actually do the job than they are digging their own hole. And when that popular person gets up there with their fake friends standing behind them and their fake smile, you will have a real smile.... Because without you, it's just another board with popular people and no purpose. So, yea, I may not be popular, but I'm not fake either.