It is crazy to think you already moved on with someone new.
Then again it was your boss so something seems a little askew.
Either way, for her sake and the little one I hope it lasts.
It is very hard to think of the memories as the past.
It hurt me that you moved on so quick.
So I had a bit of a tough time on the clock to tick.
But then I had my best friend remind me of all that I don't miss.
And then I realize it isn't you that I miss.
I miss the companion that I had. I miss the good and not the bad.
I don't miss the fights or having to leave to make a call.
I don't miss the control or the constant insecurity at all.
I don't miss having to cancel or not make plans.
Because I couldn't go to a bar or go out and dance.
Yet, you would never go with me so I could still enjoy it.
No, that wasn't "your scene", you "didn't fit."
Crazy, how quick I would be complicit.
Not again will I give up my life to commit.
The thought of how much I gave in makes me sick.
I don't miss the pushing when I wasn't in the mood.
Maybe I wasn't the one who was a prude.
Maybe we just weren't compatible to begin: you and I.
I'm independent.
You were dependent on me.
You were looking for a mother while I was looking for a partner.
I hope you find everything you are looking for.
But I'm starting to care a little less and not more.
I don't miss the phone checks or accusations.
Or waking me up from my naps with your own conclusions.
Thinking that I wasn't loyal is crazy to me.
To deleting my snap and insta just to please.
To cutting off guy friends I've had for years.
Because nothing could earn your trust, I feared.
I relinquished too much so it is a lesson well learned:
There's a difference between compromise and sacrifice.
And never again will I give up what I want for someone who will just "Suffice."
I won't settle, even if loneliness is the price.
I will gladly pay it to not see any of the struggles.
This is one candle that will never again be snuffled.
Watch out world, because this single independent woman is ready to tussle.
