Tuesday, November 30, 2021

Upon His Death

He gave us new breath
as he took his last.
The final straw
on a lonely camel's back.
Remember him
and his sacrifice.
A burden we were to have
yet it was his life.
Given too much
for nothing in return.
God loves us 
way more than we deserve.
Guilt should plague
and eat us from within.
Yet here we are
still bathing in our sin.
There is no other way
no chance to explain.
A baby boy
brought into this world.
Where there was pain
to which he took to his grave.
Ridiculed and dismayed
as he carried that cross.
The world didn't even notice
or feel the loss.
As God cried out
for his own son.
The sacrifice of the body
of the one.
As he prayed
for it to be different.
For there to be just one
other way.
Another form of pay
added to the bill.
The price of sin
was one of great length.
A ripped-up body
as he hung up there.
A crown of thorns
laid upon his head.
Yet he prayed despite
knowing he'd soon be dead.
Knowing his time
was soon to come.
And to his father
he would then return.
But he forgave those
who yelled out Murder!
For he was perfect
in every way.
A slaughtered lamb
stood on display.
His innocence he took
to the cross.
And even in his death
his purity was not lost.
For God gave his Son
for us all.
Death for our life
and to give us hope.
I just wish more knew
about the Father, Son, and Holy Ghost.






Satisfied in this Moment

I'm satisfied with where I am

Confused about how I got here

But not about where I've been

Not thinking about my past often

Not being reminded of what was then

The cruelty and thoughts that haunt

Simply only coming around once in a lot

Feeling like things may be different

If none of that had ever happened

If the trauma wasn't in more than my reaction

Exposure to people who should cease to exist

The memory corrupting some of my wish lists

Everything that was changing as I came along

But reassurance has helped me stay strong

Finally coming to terms with the situation

And being able to exist without contemplation

Parents and Family have come so far

I am so proud of who we all are

What we used to be was so different

But I'm satisfied with where I am

Confused about how I got here

But not about where I've been

So much that could have turned out bad

I guess it is true when they say he really does have a plan

And although the trials have been so long

The results are worth their weight in blood

Oxygen coursing through my veins

A reminder that breath and life can be one and the same

There is no way to even comprehend

When I survived with what little hope I had to defend

There is no other way to explain

Being able to find the faith to obtain

God is as good and as real as rain

Even when others curse out his name

He has given me a new way

And for that, I will never be able to repay

For the hatred, I first felt, and all the disdain

I will regret till my last day

Knowing he will forgive is what I clutch and what I grasp

The unknowing love this world so many times will just pass

But his love even still will last

I'm satisfied with where I am

Confused about how I got here

But not about where I've been


Thursday, November 18, 2021

A Big Bully

I hope you know
How hurt and broken you made me feel
The degrading words you say
Tear down what I thought was real
Finally in a good spot to get over my depression 
But you took hurting me to a new obsession 
You said what was on your mind
But you had no thought of consequences or being kind
You’re an asshole if there’s ever been one seen
You broke down a happy smile with all of your mean 
I hope you realize what you’ve done
But then again probably not for you’re so dumb
You don’t understand because you don’t care
You are a selfish bastard with gross hair
I can’t believe the humiliation you brought on me
I can’t believe the words even when my tears you could see
The fact that you are able to stoop so low is way beyond me
But I hope you know that I will be professional 
Just as long as I pretend you don’t exist
Because what you are is a bully
And for that I am royally pissed
You don’t deserve what you got for being such a dick
But I guess eventually you’ll get what you deserve 
For you are such a prick
And I hope you know that I’ll be okay
For even as you tried to win support you moved them away
No one will like you with the way you got in
You are demeaning and rude and I will lift up my chin
For even though you destroyed me for a moment
I was surrounded
You showed me how much support I can be found in
For there was no one to congratulate you
They were there to comfort can’t you see
I’m loved even when you tried to discredit me
My friends are there to protect and always will be
I have them and you’ll always just be a big meanie

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