I'm a Little Sad

 I wish you were here for my birthday,

Even though I understand why you're not.

Priorities in life change and some become less thought.

I'm sad though. It kind of hurts.

It kind of makes me feel a little less of that worth.

I understand and I don't blame you at all. 

But I needed to get this off my chest before I begin to bawl.

I'm sorry that you feel so stretched thin.

And that it isn't your fault: there's no way to win.

For the game you play you can't compete,

I know I stopped trying years ago and accepted defeat.

Whatever happened to my built-in-best-friend?

I feel like he might be gone.

Even though I knew it would happen all along:

It doesn't make it an easier weight to bear:

I guess I'm just kind of a little sad you won't be there.

Don't feel guilty: please that isn't my intention...

I simply wanted to feel more than just an honorable mention.