My Escape

Everyone has an escape, something they can go to that helps relieve tension and stress. As I am only human, pressure gets to me, however the pressure put on me isn’t from a coach, a parent, someone close to me, pressure is put on me from my own self. People have hobbies, jobs, different quirks that help them wind down, or in my case sports. Even the best things in life have drawbacks.

For me lately my escape has just been another locked room. They have started to make me hate what I love. Instead of being excited I don’t want to be there. This is the reason I started this blog a few months ago. For every open door, there is always a window to peek out of.  It is a route that goes far deeper into letting everything out. A breath of fresh air to breath. The sun to wash all the darkness away.

I have had a lot of struggles lately with trying to figure out who I am as a person, a load of change happening, and figuring out who my true friends are. Being a person like me in a society like ours is challenging. I’m not the popular one who everyone likes, far from. It’s hard to know what people really think about you and what they say about you behind your backs. But know that your words have a lasting effect on people, they can build you up or tear you down. Some stuff has happened to me a time ago with a bully, who was relentless, I’m not going to say who for I don’t want them to get hated for what they did to me. I’d be lying if I said that I was okay at the time, it destroyed part of me . I’ll never get that part of me back.

I was tempted to not post this, because I don’t want people to feel sorry for me. Just the opposite I want to help the people who have been in similar situations. Sure there are people out there who are jerks I know that better than most! What I am trying to say is that there are still good people out there, good choices can outway the bad. We all have something in our lives we love, keep doing it! Because if it weren’t for my escapes, I wouldn’t be the person I am today.