I Walk Alone

The worst part about being alone is when you are surrounded by people.

Abandonment issues that come from high above any steeple.

Knowing that one time or another all will be lost.

That people will always find better than you at any cost.

Regardless of how close they might have seemed.

Nightmares have always stemmed from what was a good dream.

Whether it is in your job or in your life.

There will always be some kind of strife.

And in a day and age where technology wanders free.

How much would intimacy really truly mean to me.

And in the deepest darkest depths of the tunnel I roam.

For I know in my heart I will truly always be alone.

So I will get used to the shadows and hugs of the darkness.

For anxiety and depression are hard to harness.

And in this weakness I will rely on only what I can be.

The one who no one invites to get tea.

The one who is more of a burden then even I could see.

The one who you will only have in distant memory.

The one who will learn how to live alone.

For this is my calling; loneliness will make a home.

When it is the abandonment that I find.

I will hold the reminder of the times.

That I can put myself together on my own.

For that is what I've had to do without ever being known.

So thank you for the abandonment of my soul.

Thank you for never remembering me or my role.

I will learn to cope and to survive.

But I just want you to know you aren't the reason I'm alive.

I simply live for myself, because you don't even care.

You continue on with your friendly affairs.

Forget about me like you always tend to do.

What can I say, I'm over all the times I helped you.

Goodbye to you who's not worth my time.

At this point I'd be lying if I said you were even worth a dime.

Just remember this when they abandon you too.

For what goes around comes around and sticks like glue.

I hope you are happy we are through.

But from what I've learned there's no such thing as starting brand new.