But not knowing is killing her day by day
Waiting and hoping for him to stay by her side
Her friends and drugs the only thing keeping her alive
And when it feels like there’s nowhere to hide
She’s desperate for a release: a change in stride
Her thoughts drift like the tide
Dreading the decisions makes her wilt up inside
Knowing that she just wants it to already be time
Starting to replace all those walls
Just in case they crumble and fall
She wants to plea for him to hold her
But she doesn’t even know if it’s over
When all she wants is to just be there
To prove how much she wants and cares
Even though the decision is all his own
She hopes he doesn’t do it alone
The toxic past soon comes to wait
As she waits for her soon to be said fate
Dreading him getting hurt and being back in place
For cheaters cheat and they don’t trust their mate
She dreads that she may soon have to say goodbye
She tries to prepare herself to cut those ties
But can she really after all they’ve been through
She has to ask why
Why can he think about her who straight up lied
Knowing he deserves better than that my oh my
She wants to tell him that she misses him
But he just wants space
Time to process and try to erase
Or is this all just a game or another phase
She wishes she knew so she could plan the way
Having control is one thing she craves
And not having that is causing waves
Trauma coming back to haunt not save
And she’s struggling as much as him
When this entire situation is more than a whim
She just wants to be okay
She just wants him to stay
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